I've been doing really well keeping a good attitude but today everything is just weighing on me so heavily.
-The lashing that I got from a few "anonymous" cowards with regard to the "bumpy road" post. (No, I did not publish them.)
- Telling the parents again that things didn't work out and their associated reaction.
- And most difficult is the gravity of what this all means. One more try in the contract. Poor odds for the rest of the embryos. What if this next cycle doesn't work for them? Then what? I know it's not about me, but I've been imagining the day that I give them a baby every day for the last 9 months. No doubt they have been too! Although nowhere near that of K&M, my family and I have made sacrifices to do this, and at this point there has been no gain.
...Looking for the rainbow after the storm here.
The nurse said they may make some changes to my meds on the next round. I hope that doesn't mean more needles and syringes. Looks like we'll get started again once my cycle restarts. For now... I'm going to go crawl into a hole. I'll work on turning my attitude around tomorrow.